I can't believe he's almost six weeks old already!

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This picture was taken last week when I went over to my in-laws' house to have lunch and get a change of scenery. My "little" man weighed in at 12 1/2 lbs, and he is wearing clothes in a 3-6 month size! For two days this past week, he wanted to nurse literally every hour, and we figured out that breast milk alone is just not satisfying his poor little tummy, so we started giving him some rice cereal as a supplement to help fill him up.

Getting up in the middle of the night is hard sometimes. Sometimes, I wake up and hear him crying and I think that he's there with me on my lap, and then once I open my eyes I realize he's still in his crib! Some nights, it's so tempting not to put him back in his crib, so I just snuggle him up on my shoulder, and we hunker down with Tom for the rest of the night. He's just so warm and cuddly! And yes, there are some nights when I am so tired that I feel as if I could just cry. In fact, the other night I was so tired, I cried. Being a Mom is HARD. But I love it. I just wish it came with a slightly better paycheck.

So, on my nightstand next to my bed, I have the following reading materials:
A copy of "Goodnight Moon" (Bedtime routine)
The latest issue of "Real Simple" magazine
The last two issues of "Vegetarian Times" magazine
My favorite vegetarian cookbook
Dr. Spock's guide to child care, updated
Caring For Your Child from Birth to Age 5
What to Expect the First Year

I think I've become a Mom! Actually, I knew I had become a Mom when I realized I had spilled my lunch down the same shirt that Colden had recently spit up on. That was when I was like, okay, it's official. I know have lunch, spit up, and dog fur all on the same t-shirt. I must be someone's mother. Hahahaa!

I'm wanting to start beading again now, and I want to be able to get back to work, but I can't do much of anything until we get Colden's feeding schedule worked out, and I get back some of the use of my lower abdominal muscles. I am walking around way better than I have in months, but it still hurts, and the last few days, my tailbone is incredibly sore. (Probably from sitting and nursing Colden so much through this latest growth spurt!) It absolutely amazes me how you just take those lower abdominal muscles for granted until you actually need them and can't use them. Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night to get Colden, I'm stiff and sore from sleeping, and when I go to sit up, the pain will still take my breath away. I still need to grab onto the headboard and push myself up sometimes. Sometimes, I can sit myself up by rocking forward and grabbing my knees. But I am absolutely longing for the day when I can sleep on my side again. I tried to sleep on my side last night, but it was still too uncomfortable. It just felt like all of my insides were falling out when I rolled over.

Speaking of sleep, I would love to go close my eyes for a few minutes before Colden wakes up from his nap and needs to be fed again. Napping during the day, I think, has absolutely saved my life thus far...